Random Me
Stuck in Reverse
Could it be worse?
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Hidden
WHERE ARE YOU HIDING !? I can't find it online or in the library. Should i go and buy it? that is, if i can even find it in stores...
Originality
there's nothing more that can be done that's worth doing
cause all that's worth is done
and all that's done is "worth"
(by society's shallow standards)
what's left are copycats and scaredy-cats
the originals will not survive
unless society supports them
society has the final say
what do YOU say?
cause all that's worth is done
and all that's done is "worth"
(by society's shallow standards)
what's left are copycats and scaredy-cats
the originals will not survive
unless society supports them
society has the final say
what do YOU say?
What Makes us Human
the heart
the mind
the soul
the thought
the intention
the decision
the action
the life
the death
the mind
the soul
the thought
the intention
the decision
the action
the life
the death
Random
My existence was not random, nor was it an accident. God knew who He was creating, and He designed me for a specific work.
-- Francis Chan
nothing is ever a miracle.
it is meant to be.
everything can go so perfectly.
or it can all go disastrously wrong.
maktub
-- Francis Chan
nothing is ever a miracle.
it is meant to be.
everything can go so perfectly.
or it can all go disastrously wrong.
maktub
Live
I don't deserve you
so i try to make myself a better person
to deserve you
i live for you
so i try to make myself a better person
to deserve you
i live for you
Fuck the system
the first few years were fun
then the roller coaster ride begun
school
in and out
jump jump jump
move move move
new new new
adapt adapt adapt
what the hell
this isnt life
then, adulthood starts at 18
what a joke
that's it, after all that ungraceful 18 years
that's it, here's your life, do what you want
till you die, but here's the thing: follow the system
then the roller coaster ride begun
school
in and out
jump jump jump
move move move
new new new
adapt adapt adapt
what the hell
this isnt life
then, adulthood starts at 18
what a joke
that's it, after all that ungraceful 18 years
that's it, here's your life, do what you want
till you die, but here's the thing: follow the system
tears
now, when you break,
you fell like all the nitty gritty things are so insignificant
"why do i even cry over them in the past," you thought
well think this way:
in the future, what you are crying over now won't matter
life gets harder, but it goes on
cry all you want but know this
there will be harder things in the future
you fell like all the nitty gritty things are so insignificant
"why do i even cry over them in the past," you thought
well think this way:
in the future, what you are crying over now won't matter
life gets harder, but it goes on
cry all you want but know this
there will be harder things in the future
moderation
you're weak (you can't even help those dear to you)
you're strong (you crush the ones you love to death)
you're strong (you crush the ones you love to death)
Help
some form of help is unnecessary
help needed is weakness highlighted
help needed is weakness highlighted
Deception
what's nice may not be branded
what's branded may not be nice
choose what you need
choose not what you want
choose wisely
and don't succumb
what's branded may not be nice
choose what you need
choose not what you want
choose wisely
and don't succumb
Numb
useless useless useless
when i'm needed most,
i can't do anything
communication is important
it means to talk and to listen
it means to understand and to feel
the next step is even more important:
to act
when i'm needed most,
i can't do anything
communication is important
it means to talk and to listen
it means to understand and to feel
the next step is even more important:
to act
Tear
try to make amends
once you realize there's a tear
before it's too torn
that the effort to fix it
is too much to care
(p.s. it will not remain the same)
(p.p.s you can't stop the tear)
once you realize there's a tear
before it's too torn
that the effort to fix it
is too much to care
(p.s. it will not remain the same)
(p.p.s you can't stop the tear)
remix of a weird day
i'm rich
we are capable of so much
yet we do so little
our talents
are pushed aside
for things that never last
keeping is to always remember
a reminder of a past best forgotten
do i delete them?
sometimes revisiting the past is good
sometimes, it forces you to relive your mistakes
would it even help deleting all that is here
when a permanent copy is in your soul
We only know
what we know
forever feels like home
it's the only home
you have since life
it's the only home
you have since life
Unknown
i act like i know everything
when in actuality i'm clueless
i'm just as blind as you are
feeling, tripping, crawling
my way through this maze
when in actuality i'm clueless
i'm just as blind as you are
feeling, tripping, crawling
my way through this maze
Coward
the more you give
the more you expect
the higher you go
the harder the fall
oh how i guard my soul
Everything Lost its meaning
we don't take anything seriously anymore
everything's diluted
we don't know what to stand for
everyone's blinded
the small things becomes necessary
and the big things becomes secondary
everything's diluted
we don't know what to stand for
everyone's blinded
the small things becomes necessary
and the big things becomes secondary
The Truth
everyone has their own lens
through which they view the world
directly, indirectly or not at all
we form our own stories
this is our perspectives
not one is the truth
the same thing is different
not one is objective
through which they view the world
directly, indirectly or not at all
we form our own stories
this is our perspectives
not one is the truth
the same thing is different
not one is objective
Drive
why drive
no drive
how to drive
drive where
drive with who
no drive
how to drive
drive where
drive with who
My Fault
he knows
why i can't i keep it shut
she cries
why can't i listen
it has been there all along
these 4 months
yet i was blind
why can't i do what was needed doing
i'm sorry for the pain
i caused
why i can't i keep it shut
she cries
why can't i listen
it has been there all along
these 4 months
yet i was blind
why can't i do what was needed doing
i'm sorry for the pain
i caused
Here is a test to find out whether your mission on earth is finished:
if you’re alive, it isn’t.
Only He has the right to judge me.
Because only He knows what’s in my heart.
Those things I wouldn’t dare say out loud?
Not even if I was by myself.
He knows.
Subhan’Allah
Trick
do it tomorrow,
but prepare today,
and it'll be easier
but prepare today,
and it'll be easier
Anywhere but Here
the world
my mind
the future
the past
the people
the feelings
everything
my mind
the future
the past
the people
the feelings
everything
Wrong Right
finally i can be happy
cuz i'm finally free
but, no, not really
cuz i'm finally free
but, no, not really
Keep death close
value of life is found
as you see the end
imagine all the
possibilities and ways
you can die right now
and yet you live on
unaware that sight, hands, life,
are gifts, don't expect
he/she could be you
you could be in their place now,
in an instant, changed
God's will will and can
change anything in a sec
He can, but didn't
trust in all his plans
no matter how you may feel
or what you may know
this world is a test
for you as He loves you more
than you'll ever know
as you see the end
imagine all the
possibilities and ways
you can die right now
and yet you live on
unaware that sight, hands, life,
are gifts, don't expect
he/she could be you
you could be in their place now,
in an instant, changed
God's will will and can
change anything in a sec
He can, but didn't
trust in all his plans
no matter how you may feel
or what you may know
this world is a test
for you as He loves you more
than you'll ever know
Change
should haves
of the past
are useless
when there's more
in the future
of the past
are useless
when there's more
in the future
27/8 remix
feelings are ...
they cant be seen
but how they affect me
as loud as the shuttle
as bright as the sun
as strong as an earthquake
a force to be reckon with
the power of the mind
a force that cant be ignored
but what is it
out of focus out
of sight out of mind we blind
ourselves with blindfolds
Light, the visible reminder of Invisible Light -T. S. Elliot
in a minute
i like songs with
interesting music,
unique music,
awesome lyrics,
loud drums,
electric guitars,
soothing melody,
nice beats,
the voice,
meaning.
baby to
child to
teenager to
adult to
parents to
grandparents to
death
i find it hard to express myself verbally
easy to speak of something i believe in
easier to wriite it all out
when i have all the time in the world
to carefully translate
the languages of the heart, mind and soul,
that only have a voice within me
to script out
the million and one plays
with a billion and one actors
in my head
to put it in cryptic poems
or confusing prose
or abstract drawings
or incoherently mad gibberish that is me
they cant be seen
but how they affect me
as loud as the shuttle
as bright as the sun
as strong as an earthquake
a force to be reckon with
the power of the mind
a force that cant be ignored
but what is it
out of focus out
of sight out of mind we blind
ourselves with blindfolds
Light, the visible reminder of Invisible Light -T. S. Elliot
in a minute
i like songs with
interesting music,
unique music,
awesome lyrics,
loud drums,
electric guitars,
soothing melody,
nice beats,
the voice,
meaning.
baby to
child to
teenager to
adult to
parents to
grandparents to
death
i find it hard to express myself verbally
easy to speak of something i believe in
easier to wriite it all out
when i have all the time in the world
to carefully translate
the languages of the heart, mind and soul,
that only have a voice within me
to script out
the million and one plays
with a billion and one actors
in my head
to put it in cryptic poems
or confusing prose
or abstract drawings
or incoherently mad gibberish that is me
28/8 remix
a tale of two stories
kisah dua cerita
nawaitu
do as in ramadhan
speak as in ramadhan
treat life as in ramadhan
what's the point
if the point is rewards
nawaitu
your actions
isn't as it seems
no one knows
but it shows
through your actions
your lies
your deceit
your eyes
your aura
your soul
your intentions
kisah dua cerita
nawaitu
do as in ramadhan
speak as in ramadhan
treat life as in ramadhan
what's the point
if the point is rewards
nawaitu
your actions
isn't as it seems
no one knows
but it shows
through your actions
your lies
your deceit
your eyes
your aura
your soul
your intentions
Through Glass
I'm looking at you through the glass
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins, contaminating everything
We thought heart ache came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
Null and void instead of voices
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you
Who are the stars?
Who are the stars that lie?
Don't know how much time has passed
Oh God it feels like forever
But no one ever tells you that forever feels like home
Sitting all alone inside your head
How do you feel? That is the question
But I forget you don't expect an easy answer
When something like a soul becomes initialized
And folded up like paper dolls and little notes
You can't expect a bit of hope
So while you're outside looking in
Describing what you see
Remember what you're staring at is me
How much is real? So much to question
An epidemic of the mannequins, contaminating everything
We thought heart ache came from the heart
It never did right from the start
Just listen to the noises
Null and void instead of voices
Before you tell yourself
It's just a different scene
Remember it's just different from what you've seen
And it's the stars
The stars that shine for you
And it's the stars
The stars that lie to you
Who are the stars?
Who are the stars that lie?
Ibu
amalku untukmu
walau sebanyak butir pasir di pantai
takkan pernah cukup membalas jasamu
mengandungku, melahirkanku, menghidupkanku,
mengasuhku, mendidikku menjadi anak yang bertaqwa,
ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku,
sesungguhnya aku yang khilaf dan sesat,
tetapi tidak sesekali kau mengeluh
malah kasih sayang terus mencurah untukku
kata-kata takkan pernah cukup
amal budi takkan pernah memadai
cintamu tak berbalas
walau sebanyak butir pasir di pantai
takkan pernah cukup membalas jasamu
mengandungku, melahirkanku, menghidupkanku,
mengasuhku, mendidikku menjadi anak yang bertaqwa,
ampunkanlah dosa-dosaku,
sesungguhnya aku yang khilaf dan sesat,
tetapi tidak sesekali kau mengeluh
malah kasih sayang terus mencurah untukku
kata-kata takkan pernah cukup
amal budi takkan pernah memadai
cintamu tak berbalas
You're not Alone Tonight - Keith Urban
We all drink to forget
Some of us more than most
When reality gets too real
And the fires of hell to close
But I'm here to let you know that
That you can make it through
If you believe that someone is watchin' over you
We all have our days
When nothing goes as planned
Not a soul in the world
Seems to understand
And for someone to talk to
You'd give anything
Well go on and cry out loud
'Cause someone's listenin'
Yeah, and call it an angel
Call it a muse
And call it karma that you've got comin' to you
What's the difference
What's in name
What matters most is never ever losin' faith
'Cause it's gonna be alright
You're not alone tonight
Keep your faith alive
You're not the only one
Some of us more than most
When reality gets too real
And the fires of hell to close
But I'm here to let you know that
That you can make it through
If you believe that someone is watchin' over you
We all have our days
When nothing goes as planned
Not a soul in the world
Seems to understand
And for someone to talk to
You'd give anything
Well go on and cry out loud
'Cause someone's listenin'
Yeah, and call it an angel
Call it a muse
And call it karma that you've got comin' to you
What's the difference
What's in name
What matters most is never ever losin' faith
'Cause it's gonna be alright
You're not alone tonight
Keep your faith alive
You're not the only one
Story Tellers
…every song
reflects
some truth
in the Writer’s
life, memories, emotions…
…every song
creates
new stories
of the Writer’s
dreams, adventures, nightmares…
…every song
carries
hidden messages
from the Writer’s
to friends, family, enemies…
reflects
some truth
in the Writer’s
life, memories, emotions…
…every song
creates
new stories
of the Writer’s
dreams, adventures, nightmares…
…every song
carries
hidden messages
from the Writer’s
to friends, family, enemies…
me (?)
my mind told me to stop caring,
but my heart won't listen.
i'm so conflicted,
torn in two directions every time.
nothing is clear anymore
the glass i'm looking through
is fogged up.
who's right?
is there a wrong?
who do i listen to
when i can't trust my own heart
i'm on a stage
with so many roles to play
what do i do
which one is the real me?
is any one of them me?
am i an empty vessel,
filled with expectations
and hope and teachings
forced down my throat
i need to know
so i can live
but is not knowing
the art of living
but my heart won't listen.
i'm so conflicted,
torn in two directions every time.
nothing is clear anymore
the glass i'm looking through
is fogged up.
who's right?
is there a wrong?
who do i listen to
when i can't trust my own heart
i'm on a stage
with so many roles to play
what do i do
which one is the real me?
is any one of them me?
am i an empty vessel,
filled with expectations
and hope and teachings
forced down my throat
i need to know
so i can live
but is not knowing
the art of living
my idea of holiday
why cant i just float
on the red sea
and do nothing,
absolutely nothing,
not think,
not feel,
not talk
and just be...
on the red sea
and do nothing,
absolutely nothing,
not think,
not feel,
not talk
and just be...
Lies
you lie
till it's the truth
and you try
to fill the hole
because guilt
till it's the truth
and you try
to fill the hole
because guilt
Ratings
we rate people wrong
underrate and overrate
judge without knowledge
underrate and overrate
judge without knowledge
True Story
labelled as a liar
when other's expectations
don't match reality
when other's expectations
don't match reality
Limit
"I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited." – Sylvia Plath
Beauty
“You take a born-pretty girl and you dress her up in pretty things, curl her pretty hair and she becomes empty, vacuous. The only thing she can claim as a self identity is her one dimensional beauty. But take a pretty girl and throw some shit on her, and make her fight her way out of it and she’ll grow to be other-worldly radiant and a force to be reckoned with.” — Beautiful and Depraved
I've been meaning to post this for a while, ever since after the tennis match... it totally reminded me of this scene from Skip Beat! - Stage 7 Princess Revolution. just watch the whole tea ceremony (can skip the song, but the song is damn nice actually)
Kau yang tahu segala isi hatiku
Kau yang mengerti segala hasrat di hati
- Kau Yang Mengerti, Art Fazil
Posted by amanda Thu Jun 10, 2010 2:16pm PDT
i once heard of a catholic priest who was old and having trouble walking up some stairs, and a young boy, seeing the man, helped him reach the top of the stairs. the priest then turned to the boy and said god bless you. the boy turned pale and said im muslim. the priest said allah bless you then. the boy then smiled and went on his way.
im neither catholic nor muslim. yet i find this story of tolerance inspiring. i am a christian, and have nothing against muslims, jews, hindus, or anyone else. we all (unless your an atheist, but i have nothing against athiests) worship our form of god. be it god, allah, or something else. so lets all have tolerance and understanding and respect one anothers beliefs. maybe actually learning about someone elses religion, rather than just making blatant ignorant statements, would be a wise thing to do?
i once heard of a catholic priest who was old and having trouble walking up some stairs, and a young boy, seeing the man, helped him reach the top of the stairs. the priest then turned to the boy and said god bless you. the boy turned pale and said im muslim. the priest said allah bless you then. the boy then smiled and went on his way.
im neither catholic nor muslim. yet i find this story of tolerance inspiring. i am a christian, and have nothing against muslims, jews, hindus, or anyone else. we all (unless your an atheist, but i have nothing against athiests) worship our form of god. be it god, allah, or something else. so lets all have tolerance and understanding and respect one anothers beliefs. maybe actually learning about someone elses religion, rather than just making blatant ignorant statements, would be a wise thing to do?
Isn't it beautiful?
I love to watch in awe God's creations known to Man and then wonder about the other 2 billion other life-forms still unknown. Wouldn't they be of more magnificent and amazing than those known. Wouldn't they be prettier and more surprising than what is already known. I can't wait to uncover them myself and see the truth of God.
It's a LAMP.
First glance, I thought it was real too... But then, I looked again and it wasn't. *sigh* nevermind, I'll find some real ones next time. But, hey, this picture's quite nicely taken too right? *grins*
Floating through space...
stingrays are just amazing floaters aren't they? truly magnificent and concrete proof of God's existence. We are never possible without them, so be grateful. start giving back what is rightfully theirs.
Beautiful Present, Colourful Future
omg, isnt it a nice quote. notice the beauty surrounding you now, for they will dissapear the next moment. but do not fear for moments replacing the past would always be filled with colour. then, you'll have to notice the beauty in those colours that surround you, for colours are not just colours, they feel, they see, they hear, they are your own creations.
What if
the person you see in real life is a mask
the person you spend time talking to is a robot
the person who only unmasks herself
under nobody's scrutinizing judgments
is actually the real deal
the person who you will never recognize
unless she wears the mask of lies
the mask of normalcy that society forced on her
but that mask is breaking
she's suffocating beneath the mask dense with lies
who is she without the mask
can she live without the mask
or will she be poisoned by freedom
the person you spend time talking to is a robot
the person who only unmasks herself
under nobody's scrutinizing judgments
is actually the real deal
the person who you will never recognize
unless she wears the mask of lies
the mask of normalcy that society forced on her
but that mask is breaking
she's suffocating beneath the mask dense with lies
who is she without the mask
can she live without the mask
or will she be poisoned by freedom
He Hates You
Allah hates procrastinators
it's nothing to be proud of
so why do we laugh?
change your ways, god dammit
NOW
don't wait till later
because later will be too late
it's nothing to be proud of
so why do we laugh?
change your ways, god dammit
NOW
don't wait till later
because later will be too late
Fuck the system
Everyone don't have to be entrepreneurs
everyone don't have to be smart
everyone don't have to be rich
to be happy, to live well
what happened to love, talent, freedom, happiness
i don't even know when things start to go wring
i swear, even if we want to change this world,
nobody knows how
nobody is at fault
nobody is to be blamed
nobody is responsible
nobody can say for certain, we push the fault
that's what we're taught
i have no one to blame
but need to put the blame somewhere
so fuck the system
and speak up
everyone don't have to be smart
everyone don't have to be rich
to be happy, to live well
what happened to love, talent, freedom, happiness
i don't even know when things start to go wring
i swear, even if we want to change this world,
nobody knows how
nobody is at fault
nobody is to be blamed
nobody is responsible
nobody can say for certain, we push the fault
that's what we're taught
i have no one to blame
but need to put the blame somewhere
so fuck the system
and speak up
Symbols
but the eyes are blind, one must look with the heart
Love
share the silence
how nice would that be
just to lie side by side
absorbing everything
and knowing we both know it
share the stories
how nice would that be
just to unveil everything in front of someone
and he will continue to listen
no matter the stories
share the differences
how nice would that be
just to understand and accept
but still softly nudge each other
through the journeys
and have a playful relationship
how nice would that be
just to lie side by side
absorbing everything
and knowing we both know it
share the stories
how nice would that be
just to unveil everything in front of someone
and he will continue to listen
no matter the stories
share the differences
how nice would that be
just to understand and accept
but still softly nudge each other
through the journeys
and have a playful relationship
The truth
ask yourself this:
how much of your actions and talks are genuine,
how much is an act.
are you humble
or do you act with humility,
are you kind
or do you perform acts of kindness,
are you forgiving
or do you think you have to forgive
where is the line between doing what you believe in
and doing for should and shouldn't.
is it from the heart or from the mind?
or is it because of the mind thus the heart.
think of a kind person and multiply that infinitely.
think of an evil doing and surround yourself with it.
think of strength and power
and imagine a far greater strength and power.
think of the weird and illogical
and imagine other possible impossibilities
should it came to existence.
think of time and imagine not following it.
think of laws of physics and imagine the power to invent it
yet not follow it.
think of the greatest inventions
and imagine the creator of the world and its flora and fauna.
think of what you have
and question how much is really yours.
why are you so humble
because there's nothing to be proud of
how much of your actions and talks are genuine,
how much is an act.
are you humble
or do you act with humility,
are you kind
or do you perform acts of kindness,
are you forgiving
or do you think you have to forgive
where is the line between doing what you believe in
and doing for should and shouldn't.
is it from the heart or from the mind?
or is it because of the mind thus the heart.
think of a kind person and multiply that infinitely.
think of an evil doing and surround yourself with it.
think of strength and power
and imagine a far greater strength and power.
think of the weird and illogical
and imagine other possible impossibilities
should it came to existence.
think of time and imagine not following it.
think of laws of physics and imagine the power to invent it
yet not follow it.
think of the greatest inventions
and imagine the creator of the world and its flora and fauna.
think of what you have
and question how much is really yours.
why are you so humble
because there's nothing to be proud of
the world
it started with a depressing discovery
we live in such a bleak and hopeless world
it ended with a depressing thought
we can't change it
we live in such a bleak and hopeless world
it ended with a depressing thought
we can't change it
Open your eyes
i'm sorry
for putting it down
for dismissing everything
i should have known
that it wasn't easy at all
i'm sorry (for myself) that it took
me going through the same thing
to make me see
i see now
that there never was such a thing as empathy
not without the experience
don't talk if you don't know
what you're talking about
but then again,
i will talk,
i will make sure you listen
to what i have to say
to what i think is right for you
every single one of you
even though i have no right
even though i have no idea how hard it is to do
for putting it down
for dismissing everything
i should have known
that it wasn't easy at all
i'm sorry (for myself) that it took
me going through the same thing
to make me see
i see now
that there never was such a thing as empathy
not without the experience
don't talk if you don't know
what you're talking about
but then again,
i will talk,
i will make sure you listen
to what i have to say
to what i think is right for you
every single one of you
even though i have no right
even though i have no idea how hard it is to do
all that i am, all that i ever was,
is here in your perfect eyes, they're all that i can see
those three words, are said too much, they're not enough
- Chasing Cars
is here in your perfect eyes, they're all that i can see
those three words, are said too much, they're not enough
- Chasing Cars
Hypocrite
is when you keep changing
the definition of a hypocrite
to suit you
whatever
is when you know
better
but you do nothing
at all
you're worse than those
who knows less
what a waste of knowledge
you are where knowledge goes to waste
the definition of a hypocrite
to suit you
whatever
is when you know
better
but you do nothing
at all
you're worse than those
who knows less
what a waste of knowledge
you are where knowledge goes to waste
Whataya stand for
“People know what they do; frequently they know why they do what they do; but what they don’t know is what what they do does.”
—Michel Foucault
before you start fighting for a cause
or joining a movement
or influencing others to join,
truly understand its impacts
you know what
you know why
you never fully know therefore
—Michel Foucault
before you start fighting for a cause
or joining a movement
or influencing others to join,
truly understand its impacts
you know what
you know why
you never fully know therefore
Arrogance
knowing everything about the world
knowing nothing about your soul
knowing nothing about your soul
Ilham
dari bayu ke akal
dari akal ke jari
dari jari ke dakwat
dari dakwat ke buku
dan dibuku
terhenti disitu
jiwaku terbuku
tiada siapa pun tahu
dari akal ke jari
dari jari ke dakwat
dari dakwat ke buku
dan dibuku
terhenti disitu
jiwaku terbuku
tiada siapa pun tahu
Iridescent
When you were standing in the wake of devastation
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down,
insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go.
And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of tempered grace
falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms
when you were waiting on the edge of the unknown
with the cataclysm raining down,
insides crying save me now
you were there and possibly alone.
Do you feel cold and lost in desperation
you build up hope, but failure's all you've known
remember all the sadness and frustration
and let it go.
And in the burst of light that blinded every angel
as if the sky had blown the heavens into stars
you felt the gravity of tempered grace
falling into empty space
no one there to catch you in their arms
Feel
it's hard to act without feelings
the only way is to think
even then
we only do what we feel should be done
the only way is to think
even then
we only do what we feel should be done
Hypocrite
the very mouths that speaks your name
sin
the very hands that fulfill your orders
sin
the very legs that walk in your path
sin
the very eyes that read your words
sin
the very ears that hear your call
sin
if that is not a hypocrite
what is?
sin
the very hands that fulfill your orders
sin
the very legs that walk in your path
sin
the very eyes that read your words
sin
the very ears that hear your call
sin
if that is not a hypocrite
what is?
Same and Similar
homes and houses
getting through and getting over
should and would
want and like
can and may
understanding and accepting
knowing and acting
look and see
hear and listen
getting through and getting over
should and would
want and like
can and may
understanding and accepting
knowing and acting
look and see
hear and listen
Deserve
i don't deserve
everyone and everything
i have
i'm inadequate
to give back
all that i owe
i'm sorry
i'm so useless
stay away
i have nothing to give
everyone and everything
i have
i'm inadequate
to give back
all that i owe
i'm sorry
i'm so useless
stay away
i have nothing to give
islam: more than meets the eye
Unknown
i do things in my sleep
which i'm unaware of
nazmi
i want too many things
but worked too little
i am a person
i get scared
i breakdown
i care
i feel guilty
i am emotional
i get attached more easily than i'd like
i love books
i have never fallen in love
you're cute/hot, so what?
i am scared
i am not smart
i want eternal happiness and peace
i'm not always perfect
i can't accept things as they are
i have to know
i have to understand
i want to learn ancient languages, esp Arab
i want to reconnect (i don't know how)
i want to be fair
i do things when no one's looking
i won't tell people about the things i do or don't do
when i know they will pound the hammer based on my actions
i believe that i'm a bad person
which i'm unaware of
nazmi
i want too many things
but worked too little
i am a person
i get scared
i breakdown
i care
i feel guilty
i am emotional
i get attached more easily than i'd like
i love books
i have never fallen in love
you're cute/hot, so what?
i am scared
i am not smart
i want eternal happiness and peace
i'm not always perfect
i can't accept things as they are
i have to know
i have to understand
i want to learn ancient languages, esp Arab
i want to reconnect (i don't know how)
i want to be fair
i do things when no one's looking
i won't tell people about the things i do or don't do
when i know they will pound the hammer based on my actions
i believe that i'm a bad person
What defines us
we see the same things
but it's our reactions that
reveals our true self
look at million things
filter a selected few
we are that filter
a filter that choose
based on personality,
moods, identity.
but it's our reactions that
reveals our true self
look at million things
filter a selected few
we are that filter
a filter that choose
based on personality,
moods, identity.
Avenues
we are not merely what we do
we are not merely what others do
we are not merely what we say
we are not merely what others say
we are not merely what we like
we are not merely what we know
we are not merely what we wish
we are not merely what we think
the sum never makes up the whole
the process of addition completes the picture too
we are not merely what others do
we are not merely what we say
we are not merely what others say
we are not merely what we like
we are not merely what we know
we are not merely what we wish
we are not merely what we think
the sum never makes up the whole
the process of addition completes the picture too
I will never know what it's like
to be the minority,
pretty,
smart,
confident,
athletic,
talented,
carefree,
funny,
wise,
dependable,
with a comfortable life,
with a bright future,
but then again,
i will never know what it's like
to be the majority,
when growing up is a blessing,
when a meal is God-sent,
when clothes and technology
is the least of your worries,
when you can't even read this,
when you are left to fend for yourself,
when every second is a fight,
when death is almost a constant.
why are you who you are?
pretty,
smart,
confident,
athletic,
talented,
carefree,
funny,
wise,
dependable,
with a comfortable life,
with a bright future,
but then again,
i will never know what it's like
to be the majority,
when growing up is a blessing,
when a meal is God-sent,
when clothes and technology
is the least of your worries,
when you can't even read this,
when you are left to fend for yourself,
when every second is a fight,
when death is almost a constant.
why are you who you are?
constant change
what seems to fit may not be right
what you don't understand may not be wrong
what is not discovered may exist
what is not proven can be true
what is hidden is still there
what is valuable can be rubbish
what is rubbish can be valued
what you ignore does not disappear
what you believe may crash in a moment
what you deny chases you
relativity
think of it
what you don't understand may not be wrong
what is not discovered may exist
what is not proven can be true
what is hidden is still there
what is valuable can be rubbish
what is rubbish can be valued
what you ignore does not disappear
what you believe may crash in a moment
what you deny chases you
relativity
think of it
Torn
I'm torn up inside
A veil of falsehood covers
It's wrong, God damned wrong
A veil of falsehood covers
It's wrong, God damned wrong
Express
respected actors
reveal pretend different
sides, possibilites
they lead many lives
through their facial expressions
we are reflected
when acting, reveal,
don't layer essence with masks
reveal bits of you
how is it that one
can express love but not feel
and be brave yet shake
reveal pretend different
sides, possibilites
they lead many lives
through their facial expressions
we are reflected
when acting, reveal,
don't layer essence with masks
reveal bits of you
how is it that one
can express love but not feel
and be brave yet shake
‘Believe in God like the sun up in the sky; science can tell us how, it can’t tell us why.’
- J.Cole
- J.Cole
Books
hardcopy
real
paper
books
are
better
than
movies
drama
anime
softcopy
real
paper
books
are
better
than
movies
drama
anime
softcopy
Hard to Please
sense of achievement
to please those who're hard to please
one of few who can
to please those who're hard to please
one of few who can
Blind
there's so much
we can't see
and so much more
we fail to fathom
like a mother
who knows best
like a father
who gives you his all
like a spouse
who cares more than you'd know
like a teacher
who helps you through
the task which he assigned
like a friend
who's always listening
and you can depend on
like a sister
who tells you your mistakes
and helps you through
He's always there with you
You're not alone tonight
He's there
we can't see
and so much more
we fail to fathom
like a mother
who knows best
like a father
who gives you his all
like a spouse
who cares more than you'd know
like a teacher
who helps you through
the task which he assigned
like a friend
who's always listening
and you can depend on
like a sister
who tells you your mistakes
and helps you through
He's always there with you
You're not alone tonight
He's there
Key
pictures: unique keys
unlocks different memories,
feelings, reminders.
unlocks different memories,
feelings, reminders.
You and Me
its saddening
how our doings,
both the good
and especially the bad,
were never influenced.
how we could've
learn,
question,
think it through,
and still we chose
and we chose to hurt,
hurt everyone, everything.
and still we continue
doing all these things
knowingly,
consciously,
we continue.
how our doings,
both the good
and especially the bad,
were never influenced.
how we could've
learn,
question,
think it through,
and still we chose
and we chose to hurt,
hurt everyone, everything.
and still we continue
doing all these things
knowingly,
consciously,
we continue.
Delusional
i tell myself there’s far worse things in life,
but the truth is, i’m scared,
i want to run away
but the truth is, i’m scared,
i want to run away
De(wi)ath
omg
shoot
sigh
bang
and dewi lost her head
shoot
sigh
bang
and dewi lost her head
the liars and lied to
when a beautiful person
is not kind
when a lazy guy
is smart
when a tall guy
is not athletic
when looks and traits
dont mirror personality and character
is not kind
when a lazy guy
is smart
when a tall guy
is not athletic
when looks and traits
dont mirror personality and character
handicap
looking but not seeing
hearing but not listening
empathy without action
ability without execution
knowledge without moral
hearing but not listening
empathy without action
ability without execution
knowledge without moral
beautiful
silent tears hidden
you know that i saw, i know,
words were left unsaid
you know that i saw, i know,
words were left unsaid
Regrets
look back and wonder
how much your life can change if
you choose different
think through and reflect
you survived and lived through it
regardless outcome
look forward and see
bigger mountains will appear
regrets lead you here
regrets are lessons,
bad experiences, memories,
note to self improve
how much your life can change if
you choose different
think through and reflect
you survived and lived through it
regardless outcome
look forward and see
bigger mountains will appear
regrets lead you here
regrets are lessons,
bad experiences, memories,
note to self improve
Owls ( Y )
Owls confirmed for creepiest birds ever. Just look at those bastards!!! If you fail to notice the fucker swallowing a rat like a champ then there’s the dude singing some satanic song or something and the other two fuckers synchronized to make you feel the creeps with their soulless dance of doom.
stay
when i'm weird
please stay
when i'm weird
please stay
please stay
when i'm weird
please stay
stay
one word can trap me
make me bear with everything
a little longer
make me bear with everything
a little longer
Nobody but Me
Nobody will ever understand me wholly
Not even from reading my tumblr, my website,
analyzing my interactions (both online and IRL)
being with me my whole life
Not my best friends, my mom, my sisters,
Sure, it makes me crazy sometimes,
mad, of course,
sad, even,
lonely, all the time,
That's why I talk to myself,
A me to understand me
Not even from reading my tumblr, my website,
analyzing my interactions (both online and IRL)
being with me my whole life
Not my best friends, my mom, my sisters,
Sure, it makes me crazy sometimes,
mad, of course,
sad, even,
lonely, all the time,
That's why I talk to myself,
A me to understand me
Travel
back in time or to the future
discover worlds, new realms, the universe,
jump from souls to souls,
live the horror, the fantasy, the life,
in your imagination...
discover worlds, new realms, the universe,
jump from souls to souls,
live the horror, the fantasy, the life,
in your imagination...
You dont see
how significant you are
each and everyone of you
you're needed
nobody's isolated
each and everyone of you
creates an impact onat least one person
that's enough to make you matter
just one
to show you you exist
each and everyone of you
you're needed
nobody's isolated
each and everyone of you
creates an impact onat least one person
that's enough to make you matter
just one
to show you you exist
You're Back!
Yes, I am (but i dont want to be back,
I'd rather live the rest of my life there,
no stress,
no worries,
just happiness...
It's enough of a heaven for me
Please, let me stay...
I love my life there, for once, I can breathe,
but reality doesnt work that way)
So now, I'm back...
I'd rather live the rest of my life there,
no stress,
no worries,
just happiness...
It's enough of a heaven for me
Please, let me stay...
I love my life there, for once, I can breathe,
but reality doesnt work that way)
So now, I'm back...
Mistakes
I wish time machine and
time travelling
is not just a myth
but a possibility...
Then I would go back
to change the mistakes
that lead to the destruction
of our Earth
But for time travelling
to be made possible,
we would still have to continue
ruining this Earth,
its contents,
its everything,
trees,
animals,
and inevitably,
US.
time travelling
is not just a myth
but a possibility...
Then I would go back
to change the mistakes
that lead to the destruction
of our Earth
But for time travelling
to be made possible,
we would still have to continue
ruining this Earth,
its contents,
its everything,
trees,
animals,
and inevitably,
US.
Haven
There is never such a thing as Heaven.
Not on Earth anyway.
And there never will be,
Until we take
a million steps
back
to look at
what we did
Not on Earth anyway.
And there never will be,
Until we take
a million steps
back
to look at
what we did
Heaven
I saw Eden in a mother's eyes
As she held her child and smiled
I saw softness in her touch
As she hugged him gently and cried
I saw terror on her face
As he lets go and
dissapeared into the darkness.
Does a child let go of this kindness?
YES.
As she held her child and smiled
I saw softness in her touch
As she hugged him gently and cried
I saw terror on her face
As he lets go and
dissapeared into the darkness.
Does a child let go of this kindness?
YES.
You
We see others
thinking they're stupid
for not seeing what they are born to be
for not seeing what they can achieve
for not seeing the hidden gems imprinted within.
Others see you
thinking you're stupid
for not seeing the potential within
for being so blinded in others'
neglecting your own's
Look in the mirror
and tell yourself truthfully
how beautiful your precious gems are
how dazzling they can be
if you just polish them.
thinking they're stupid
for not seeing what they are born to be
for not seeing what they can achieve
for not seeing the hidden gems imprinted within.
Others see you
thinking you're stupid
for not seeing the potential within
for being so blinded in others'
neglecting your own's
Look in the mirror
and tell yourself truthfully
how beautiful your precious gems are
how dazzling they can be
if you just polish them.
Cheater!
I thought he was gone
I thought he wouldn't come
I thought I would never see him again
I moved on to the end
and turned around
making sure she was close behind
I thought wrong
Eyes met
Turned around
Spinning
I thought he wouldn't come
I thought I would never see him again
I moved on to the end
and turned around
making sure she was close behind
I thought wrong
Eyes met
Turned around
Spinning
Holding on to you
I sat there,
Watching you break apart,
Break into pieces.
You slowly let go of this world,
All I could do is watch.
No, I must save you,
for it is the only way to repay
your kindness, even a little.
Then, I realized,
It was more than my job,
it was my love.
I sat there,
holding you,
slow down your breaking,
never letting go.
I saw the pain
in your eyes.
Nothing I did help,
I was useless.
I sat there,
watching you get back up.
You slowly releasing the tension,
the pain, the burn in your heart.
I watch as you dismissed me.
I stared, not needed
anymore.
Watching you break apart,
Break into pieces.
You slowly let go of this world,
All I could do is watch.
No, I must save you,
for it is the only way to repay
your kindness, even a little.
Then, I realized,
It was more than my job,
it was my love.
I sat there,
holding you,
slow down your breaking,
never letting go.
I saw the pain
in your eyes.
Nothing I did help,
I was useless.
I sat there,
watching you get back up.
You slowly releasing the tension,
the pain, the burn in your heart.
I watch as you dismissed me.
I stared, not needed
anymore.
